Personal blog of Prasad Ajinkya
I have hit the mother lode here … the jackpot. Till the last month, I was convinced that I was a very logic oriented fellow, and the big L word will never happen to the likes of me … I had decided to use only my mind and only that for all the decisions of my life.
Until recently, when I fell head over heels for that someone special in my life :-)
More will follow. Till that time, you can page me on 9th heaven.
Do you identify with your genre of music?
What I mean to say is that when you are listening to a particular genre or an artiste, then do you feel the emotion of that song within you? Sometimes I think that most of the bands which have shot to fame are not simply because they write good melodies or great lyrics … its because their target group can identify with the emotion underneath the song.
Do you not want to listen to a specific genre depending on your emotion?
Think about it in this way … a fan of Marilyn Manson, would most likely be wearing gothic makeup, would have had a troubled teenage life, feels unduly wronged … a fan of DJ Tiesto or Paul Oakenfield would love to dance to a good tune and definitely loves a smooth life … Linkin Park listeners would have a pent up frustration within themselves, occassionally wanting to shout out against the system.
So whats your groove?
What do you do when you seem to be cruising on a wide highway … and suddenly out of no-where a sharp corner comes into view? Well, you hit the brakes, slow down and turn with the curve.
Fair enough, you can drive. What would you do when the same analogy applies to your life?
Let me explain, what is a person supposed to do when he realizes that the nice and easy life is going to change (I never said end) … mostly for the better. But the lazy person that he is, is opposing the entire change, just because of its inherent nature … change. The person just like the car, lurches forward out of his rut and into the new direction given to his course. Heading for the unknown.
Ever have one of those days where you keep on getting this strange foreboding sensation … that the sh*t is about to hit the fan?
Today is one of them … nothing remarkable, just another day in the office, but still … when your heart is in your throat in anticipation … do not ask me anticipation of what. If I knew, then I would be a much happier person.
Makes me appreciate the Fear of the Dark – Iron Maiden :-)
Me and Amit have been having this debate since the past 2 and a half years now. It’s on the existence of god … I take the side of the theists and Sharma takes the side of the atheists. In fact he has gotten so good at that that by now he is a moderator in one of such inane communities. I just believe in god. I cant prove god’s existence, its a premise for me. And its blind acceptance to that fact.
This weekend, I had been to my family’s guru’s ashram. I was going there after an absence of 12 years (not that I missed not going there). Whilst on the way, I was questioning the many practices followed there … no leather items, lower castes may not enter certain areas, lower castes have to wait for the brahmins to finish their meals, et al. My mother seemed to take this to heart, the next day when we were having a discussion with the high priest over there, she asked him this question about why no leather … and the explanation he gave … or rather the answer he gave set me thinking.
The disciple does not have to look at question or logic for answers, he needs to look at his faith for those answers. The moment we start looking at other sources than our own faith, we have lost our faith in that particular thing. Be it god, be it science, be it the paranormal. Mulder had faith in aliens, Scully had faith in science, I have faith in god … what do you have faith in?
When I was an engineer, the campus placements were on full swing … well, not so full … it was the Dot Com Bust of 2002, remember?
So a new firm had come to campus – IRIS. And I was intent on getting placed. The interview was going well and I seemed to have the technical part of the interview clinched (whew!). Now the hard part … the HR round. Some weird questions were thrown in, but I got them or dodged them safely … then the head HR (Jayaraman, as I would soon find out) asks me, “Where do you see yourself in 5 years?”
I had not thought of this question (I was green under the gills, cut me some slack here!!). The smart alec inside me wanted to blurt out … “On the other side of the table” … I did not. I gave some simple minded answer and that was that.
5 years hence, I am taking interviews … and I AM on the other side of the table.
It has been 2 years (and 2 days) since I have left the campus on the molehill. All the spirals are lying safely packed in my room, the strategies and ideas have given way to the practicalities of real life. Nonetheless, when I was reading Sumedh’s post on CounterStrike … a stream of memories rushed forth. Those hours of insane midnight gaming, those supercharged competitive section matches, those mid-game strategy sessions and counter-attack theories.
Sat today and played CS with a friend and some bots. It was not that great, but the nostalgic feeling is being rekindled with a fuzzy warm feeling about how we used to play CS in 2004-2006.
Sigh! Heres to days gone by.